Attending College in 3...2...1...

It's been a century since i posted my previous entry, right? Okay, um, i kind of surprised and feel miserable at the same time because it's near April already. Like literally, time is too fast enough. Basically, in the new year, in the interim people will make resolutions. But if people ask me 'what is your resolution?', i dont have any of those bullshit resolutions. But i do have made some like four years ago, but no one was actually happened or reached lollll.

But there is a resolution that I have in my entire high school life, to attending superb college. At the beginning of December, i did my final exam, you know, what a stress day. First of all, when i knew all of my scores, i sort of disappointed because my scores aren't that pleasant. But luckily, my teachers gave me one more chance to increase my scores, because me and all of 12 grader are about to attend college, you know it. So, in order to that, i used my last chance as good as possible. I go home at 3 pm everyday. What a good student :') And, my final report is not that bad actually, at least all of my scores surpass 80 (and 80 also my school's minimum completeness criteria). But my main question is, could my scores make me pass university admission (Indonesian people call it SNMPTN)?

I have garbled feelings and also curious at the same time, what it feels like to be a college student. From my point of view, college is like overlapping tasks, new friends and personalities, feeling super tired, come home late, away from family (most of student college, actually), and stay in 'kos-kosan'. And if I settled down at some place near my college but away from my family, I think I need to do part-time jobs just to buy food loll. And there is one more concern of mine.

I am, a little bit, kind of, hard of making friends, I mean like it feels so hard for me to open a conversation with other stranger first. I tend to wait for people to say hi to me first, and even make a conversation. I have combination of personalities, introvert and also, extrovert. I am likely to be introvert in specific situation like meeting strangers, making friends, or be in a big circumstance like party, I just want to be with my close friends, like, I am uninterested to greet another people. So, when does my extrovert personality works? It just works whenever I am with my squad. I like to talk with more than one people, I dont know why but it feels awkward to talk with just one person. If I talked with more than one, I feel like there are so many interests and topics to discuss. People who doesn't know me yet, will have thoughts of me like I am soooo silent, either motionless. It is because if I said hi first, I am afraid it would turns out to be a super awkward conversation, or I dont know anything else to say, or I dont know how to search another topics, or answer their questions without making anything so awkward. That's what I'm afraid of.

And nooow, I have finished my exams and there is only Ujian Nasional left, and being a near-graduate-twelve-grader person, i have to plan where i want to continue my education. Well, i've planned it. I really REALLY want to continue at one of the best university in Indonesia, located at Depok, its University of Indonesia. But i feel super anxious, and i can feel my perplexity inside my head. Entering college is not as easy as i thought. I've opined that if I want to go to college, you only have to get good grades. The reality is, you HAVE to compete with other students all over Indonesia, especially when you planned to go to one of the most prestigious college in Indonesia. I finished my SNMPTN registration, entered PPKB UI, and i will register myself as SBMPTN participant on April. I'm just hoping that i could go to the college that i want.

Sorry for my long concern, yeah well im trying to relieve my stress lol. Bye <3 span="">

Sorting Hat??

Last Tuesday, i was at school with bunch of my friends, bored of listening to my english teacher talking and talking, until she instructed us to do on some task; write captions to pictures about my high school anniversary celebration. So, i done the task and start to bored again lolll. One of my friend started to talk about Harry Potter, so i remember that i had opened a site called Pottermore but i dont know how it works lmao. My friend told me that I have to make an account first and just tap on Sorting Hat option.

What did i got??

LMAOOO chill guys. Although i got slytherin it doesnt mean i am a cunning person in real life (meanwhile im not cunning at all lol). When I got Slytherin, my homepage became green. For example, if you got Ravenclaw then your homepage will become blue.

*i actually loves the logo tho*

So these days i've been talking about Harry Potter with all my friends, and today i was come over to my friend's house just to chill and watch Harry Potter MARATHON, from Half Blood Prince to Deathly Hallows part 1. Half Blood Prince became one of my favorite movie of Harry Potter series.

You could try Sorting Hat on your own to know which of Hogwart's house that fits you the most on ^^

My Top 5 Favorite Youtubers


Another activity that I do while holiday; yes, youtube-ing. Youtube is kinda like my favorite application all the time, because there are so so so many inspiring videos that bring benefit and new ideas to who watches it. Kind of videos that I love are make up expert or youtuber called it 'beauty guru', fashion, cooking, designing, and diy (do it yourself). While watching those videos, you can also add more ideas on your brain, like for designing your own room, make something useful from unused stuffs, or also new food recipes??

I have been youtube-ing since I dont know, but I'm not a youtuber yet (someday I might be one of them, I am thinking for it these days). I frequently youtube-ing so it makes me have my favorite channels. Here we go!

1. Aspyn Ovard
When I watch her videos, I was like 'oh my god she's so cute' because she's really pretty, tumblr-ish and creative. She's just 19 years old. She married with her boyfriend, Parker on October, maybe? I forgot. You should watch her videos because there's so many inspiring videos on her channel!

2. Alisha Marie

What I can describe from here is, she's cute, attractive person, and she also good at acting xD Actually, she's a brunette girl but she colored her hair into blonde. Blonde looks good on her too but in my opinion, she's so pretty with brown hair ^^ I love her instagram feed by the way

3. Amanda Steele

Everybody knows her as makeupbymandy24, right? xD I don't understand why she's so beautiful, meanwhile she's at the same age with me. Her youtube channel is about beauty and fashion. In the picture, it's her old hair because now she's changing her hair into black or brown-ish, I think. Her instagram feed is so grunge. Besides being a youtuber, she's also work as a model.

4. Michelle Phan
She's like literally the best beauty guru i've ever seen. She has her own book! She is a successful person, because she had her own beauty product called EM

5. Andori Adriani

Indonesians must be know who is she. She's the viral selebask (ask fm celeb, that's what people call if there is famous people with so many asks and likes on askfm) because of her life story. She married a guy who used to be in 8 years Jakarta-Tokyo long distance relationship. Yes, Andori is an Indonesian but she lived in Tokyo for working. Her youtube channel is about her daily activities or people call it Vlog (video blog).  Go check out her channel: Andori Adriani! ^^

That's it! Who's your favorite youtuber?

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